I can't do this alone

My mission field is my home and my family. 
Do this job well. 
A marriage the way God intented. 
Break the cycle of divorce that my husband and I grew up with.
We cannot achieve this without Jesus.
I don't want my kids searching for love in the wrong places. 

All these thoughts rush to me head when I hear the song "Lead Me" by Santus Real.  But the first time I heard this song I thought, "if only my husband could hear it". However after listening to it many times I started applying it to myself.  I am the leader in our home too.  I am the mom.  I am teaching them and guiding them. Then yesterday I heard it again in the car and the words were like what I wanted to say to God.  "give me the strength to be everything I'm called to be"

LEAD ME by Sanctus Real

I look around and see my wonderful life

Almost perfect from the outside

In picture frames, I see my beautiful wife

Always smiling, but on the inside

Oh, I can hear her saying

Lead me with strong hands

Stand up when I can't

Don't leave me hungry for love

Chasing dreams, but what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight

That I'm still the love of your life

I know we call this our home

But I still feel alone

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes

They're just children from the outside

I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine

They're independent, but on the inside

Oh, I can hear them saying

Lead me with strong hands

Stand up when I can't

Don't leave me hungry for love

Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight

That I'm still the love of your life

I know we call this our home

But I still feel alone

So Father, give me the strength

To be everything I'm called to be

Oh Father, show me the way

To lead them

Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands

To stand up when they can't

Don't want to leave them hungry for love

Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight

And give them the best of my life

So we can call this our home

Lead me 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me 'cause I can't do this alone