Guilt

How can you not love that face? I do love that face, more than anything. That's why I feel so bad when i am anything but a perfect mommy to him. I feel bad for not reading him a 3rd bedtime story when he asks for another one as I am putting him to bed. I feel guilty for working full time and being away from him. I feel bad when I getting irritated with him and it shows in my voice, or voice my scream. I feel guilty for cleaning and cooking instead of playing with him. I am sad when he asks me to play puzzle with him, but I am in the middle of dinner.

Disney World with a 2 year old

Well I believe I might have said last year that I would not travel again until Gabe was 5 years old. I forgot, but now that we are on vacation I remember again. I feel sad for him that I am writing this, it makes him sound like a bad boy, but he is not. He is a very good boy, sweet boy and smart boy. It's just he's 2, so it's a little more work.

Well we are having a good time in Disney World. I was really worried that I would get stressed or something which would spiral in to grumpy or a down right breakdown.

Breakdown happened on day #2. Reasons: Mommy went to bed at 2am, it was the day before mommy started her period, daughter gave mommy attitude, mommy was tired of potty breaks every hour, and the straw that broke the camels back; Gabe wanted his pants all the way off when sitting on the toilet to go potty and mommy really didn't feel like taking them all the off and then back on again for the 5th time that day. So I yelled and said forget it, had a total meldown basically and went to my husband ready to hand over my darlings. Ignacio took over. I had a moment. And the best part was Ignacio prayed for me in a little huddle with the kids right there in the park. THAT was really wonderful!

So I went back to the hotel early that day, got my sleep and had a MUCH better day today. Yeah for sleep!